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[Feb. 4th, 2012|06:46 pm] |
You know. I was reading my past notes or rather essays that I wrote when I was in school like history and GP.
''Woah, I can't believe I actually wrote that.'' I'm not saying that they were good (okay, give me credit, some were quite good) but ask me to write those now, it will just probably be crap.
Makes me wonder how I'm going to survive uni this august. Seriously! Big words were used that I didn't really know the meaning to. Maybe I copied and pasted my essays. HAHAHA. NAH!
Which leads me to conclude that army really makes you retarded. Now I'm not even sure whether I'm typing in proper English or not.
Finally I'm going to ORD. The day is coming. So many things to do, so many people to catch up with. But. No stable source of income anymore which means I need to find a job. No idea what I wanna do. Feel like trying to be a bartender (okay *ques laughter* ) but I'm kinda afraid to try new things. Not comfortable taking money from my parents either. Until uni starts anyway.
Sigh. Do I really sigh a lot? Someone commented I sigh a lot. Can't help but feel like there are so many uncertainties in my life. But who am I to complain when there are so many people worse off than me.
My 21st birthday is coming. But I don't really want to think about it.
2012 hasn't been that great for me so far. But its just the start. I just want something in my life to straighten out.
I know its kinda late to have resolutions and I probably won't be able to keep them anyway but heck. I want to complete at least some of them by the end of this year.
1) Lasik
2) Getting an iphone before I ord ( seems so unlikely now )
3) Learn Korean! or any other language!
4) Trip to Aussie ( self sponsored hopefully )
5) Get a good GPA for uni
6) Go climbing a lot more often ( getting back the momentum soon! )
Everything involves money. Envious of rich families. Bah rich kids. Annoying much.
I'm tired. Sigh. |
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[Nov. 11th, 2011|11:08 am] |
HAHA! looking at my past entries is so entertaining ( yes I was bored and lazy to pack my bag ). I was so full of nonsense. I am still full of nonsense but a more mature kind of nonsense. In terms of writing, I think I write much better now. HAHA. Although army has made me a tad retarded.
I don't know how to explain it. But I would say I have changed and not changed at the same time. HAHA is that even possible?
ANYWAY! I'm going Taiwan! AWESOME! EXCITED! my smelly tofu! Been dreaming about it for years since its so hard to find in Singapore.
And I'm still not done packing! and there is like 5 more hours before I have to leave for the airport. It will be awesome! I hope. Naw shouldn't have expectations less you might get disappointed. What I have learnt from life. Expect the least and prepare for the worst.
Its funny how 'learnt' is a spelling mistake in livejournal. Then I started to doubt myself whether there was such a word as 'learnt' so I googled it. And luckily, there is. But the point is that I should have been more confident in myself that livejournal could be wrong too. I seemed amused at the most trivial of things.
Well life is so far so good. I just went Philippines a month ago, going Taiwan in a few hours time. Life would be better next year. Finally I'M GOING TO ORD and celebrate my birthday at the same time, then in march Swiss/Ger, and maybe Aussie in july just maybe since it all depends on whether I have the money to travel. Then UNI! Good or bad we shall see.
Can't wait for next year.
Its been so long since I last posted. Well, I just hope I don't let this livejournal fade into oblivion. Try to post more often. Its more of keeping/penning these memories down so I can look back at this in the future. Haha.
Till next time.... |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2011|11:21 pm] |
What is this feeling I have?
Its like a hole in my heart. A gap. An emptiness. I don't really have anything that I really want. My life isn't in a mess. Yet why do I still feel like there is something wrong?
Is it because my life is a constant loop now? Or that its heading no where?
I really don't know. I can't explain it.
Looking at how other people are doing something with their lives while I'm here. Stagnant.
ARGH! wtf is wrong with me?
My livejournal is really moody place.
The busier I am, the less I would think about these kind of things.
I really want to go climbing again. But I'm afraid I cannot take how weak I have become.
Sleep is therapeutic. |
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[May. 11th, 2011|12:10 am] |
OKAY! I'm bored so I'm going to name my top 10 favorite actresses.
Not in order of merit!
1. Zooey Deschanel ( 500 days with Summer, Yes Man...)
I really think she is damn cool. Like those indie kind of people! AWESOME!
2. Emma Watson ( Harry Potter )
I mean c'mon, its Emma Watson. Like duh!
3. Ellen Page ( Inception, Juno, Whip it..)
Really talented actress.
4. Kate Beckinsale ( Underworld )
She is like super hot.
5. Chloe Moretz ( Kick Ass, 500 days with summer ...)
Super young and freaking talented. Maybe the next Emma Watson.
6. Natalie Portman ( Star Wars, No Strings Attached, Black Swan...)
One of the best actresses around. From Israel can't go wrong there.
7. Keira Knightley ( Atonement, POTC, Pride and Prejudice, Never Let Me Go...)
Don't you just love her accent. Always good in those classics.
8. Mila Kunis ( Black Swan, Book of Eli, Forgetting Sarah Marshall...)
She is different. Don't know how to explain eh!
9. Kristen Bell ( Forgetting Sarah Marshall, You Again, Burlesque...)
I find her quite talented though people might disagree. And she is hot!
10. Nina Dobrev ( Vampire Diaries )
I just love her! HOOOOOOOOOOTTTTT!
HAHAH okay most of them are based on their look but still! tsk! Tell me I'm wrong and which one doesn't deserve to be in the list! |
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[May. 5th, 2011|12:08 am] |
Its been quite awhile since I been here.
Nothing's really changed.
Just really annoyed right now. At myself mostly. I can't make up my mind.
Aye and I got to go camp for PT tmr morning. SPOILER.
I need to run though. But I really hate running. But I want to get Gold for IPPT. Do you see my dilemma?
I can't wait to start school. But that's like a year from now. Annoying.
Give me a sign? Maybe Phuket? |
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[Apr. 1st, 2011|06:34 pm] |
I was going to type something really long but I'm kinda lazy so I'm just going to keep it inside.
Life changes and as we grow older things would definitely change. Like how I used to think that it was weird to wear skinny jeans but now I always wear them. I should have realized it. It was going to happen sooner or later.
Drugs are really scary stuff. But whats really scary is the addiction to it. At first, it seemed like it was nothing. Then you begin to spend more time consuming. Making you happy, secure. The addiction slowly grows and before you realize it, you are dependent on it. You get withdrawal symptoms and all you think about is the drugs. You thought you could kick the habit. Sure, one or two days or even a week tops. Then it starts to come back to you. And the cycle starts over again. You feel stupid for being in this situation but you just can't help yourself. Nobody should ever feel this way but you wonder to yourself ' why me? '
Aye. I'm tired and really burnt. Long and busy day. But the work takes the mind off things. Should I really care no more? And just go to bed? Again the addiction makes it hard and the cycle begins. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2011|09:43 pm] |
Well its CNY so happy Chinese New Year everyone!
I'm in a happy mood. Okay I'm not.
The holidays are over so its back to work. And I can't blog about that. Cause its like illegal.
And so that probably just sums up my life right now. Yup sad ain't it.
Unless you want to hear like how I got drunk and started vomiting outside Dbl O, hence earning the nickname 'Vomit Prince'. Damn that's embarrassing.
OR HOW SOMEONE FAILED 'THE FRIEND TEST'. I'm just going to harp on it forever. muhahaha!
Or how I spent the next day recovering from that lousy hangover and thankfully won $40 at blackjack. Only to spend/loss it all + my spare cash the next day. I'm kinda poor now.
Or how Ben and Jonan drink beers like how camels drink water. Seriously a lot.
Or how Rui Wei became Rui Wen and Pawan became Krishna or Koothrappali ( yes that's the spelling I checked ). True story.
Or how Jonan spent the night 'seh' at my place and I suddenly became such a wonderful parent to a kid I did not contribute any 'swimmers' to.
Haha, my CNY is quite interesting. I had fun.
But all good things must come to an end.
NOO WAIT. My birthday is coming. So the good things have not come to an end! Hope it will be good!
And yes, best, I finally updated. Let you read a new post for a change. |
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[Jan. 1st, 2011|04:35 pm] |
Damn! Its been ages since I have posted anything here. Its probably so dead that I should just delete it. NOT! Memories are meant to be kept.
So anyway, its 2011! YAY! I DON'T FEEL ANY DIFFERENT!
Except maybe seriously tired from SENTOSA COUNTDOWN AT SILOSO BEACH LAST NIGHT! Okay, it wasn't as awesome as I thought it would be. Rather boring in fact, TOO MANY GUYS TOO LITTLE GIRLS. AND ALOT ALOT OF BANGALAS! Its like they are damn freaking rich and that the $42 fee is nothing. THEY CAME IN THE THOUSANDS! okay fine they didn't but they sure as hell outnumbered the girls. TURN LEFT BANGALA, TURN RIGHT BANGALA. TURN BEHIND BANGALA HOLDING HANDS. TURN IN FRONT BANGALA DOING BOLLYWOOD DANCE ( okay that one was quite amusing ) WLE! OKAY I SHOULD STOP IF NOT I WOULD SOUND REALLY RACIST.
LAST TIME GOING TO THE COUNTDOWN BEACH PARTY. MAYBE. HAHAHA! I think the highlight of the night was when we got our palms read by MASTER KHOR ( he is like super famous that all the celebrities go to ). He said really interesting thing stuff like what kind of career we would be good at, whether we might travel alot, our health etc. But the most important one was OUR LOVE LIFE. WLE! HE SAID MY LOVE LIFE BORING! KNS! AND AND AND HE SAID I WAS A HOPELESSLY ROMANTIC PERSON! AND AND AND THAT I WOULD MARRY YOUNG! LIKE 28! okay 28 isn't really young considering Shermaine wants to get freaking married at 22 but still I was the youngest compared to the rest that got their palms read. so yeah it was really interesting and quite worth the $25 spent. He charges $90 for an hr session at international plaza I think ( feels like I'm promoting him or something ). YUP the most interesting thing that happened last night. LIKE WOW RIGHT TOTALLY!
MOVING ON! For this year 2011. I have lots of plans that I have. I wouldn't call them resolutions since no one ever completes their resolutions and i intend to fulfill my plans so here they are. IN NO ORDER OF MERIT.
1. GET MY CIVILIAN DRIVING LICENSE
2. SAVE ABOUT $5000 FOR TRIP TO AUSSIE ( maybe visit Erika eh! )
3. HAVE A NEW ADDITION IN MY LIFE! HAHA RIGHT...
4. START ROCK CLIMBING MORE REGULARLY.
5. GET MY IPPT GOLD! ( its more for the money than anything )
6. PRACTICE MORE OF MY GUITAR.
7. SAVE MONEY IN MY BANK INSTEAD OF SPENDING ALL OF IT!
8. TRY TO KEEP MY ROOM CLEAN. ( key word here is try )
9. RUN A MARATHON WITHOUT DYING.
10. LEARN A NEW LANGUAGE.
okay you can tell I can't really think of anymore. like run a marathon seriously? ho wells. there is always the army half marathon! hey half still is a marathon okay!
ALRIGHT! HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! DON'T PARTY TOO HARD AND GET BACK TO WORK ON MONDAY! HAHA TOTALLY SPOILER SIA! byeeeee! |
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[Oct. 11th, 2010|06:05 pm] |
How I met your mother = AWESOME! WHAAADDD UPPPP!
Finishing season 5 slowly.
Nothing interesting has been happening which seriously is boring.
Everyone is busy with work. And I'm getting fat FROM work.
Don't you miss the times in school? HMMM. nope not really. HAHA.
GOD ITS SO HARD TO FIND SOMETHING TO WRITE ABOUT!
I need something to work towards to. And I think I just found it. EXCITED! |
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[Sep. 12th, 2010|01:29 pm] |
Good morning to a Sunday morning which means back to reality on a Monday morning.
Had a great weekend or rather a fruitful one. But I think I need to exercise more. Getting fat and white. Which would make me..Eric Cartman. Right. I can't just keep sitting in the lecture room all day!
So yea, I was bored so I created a formspring account(effytan). But its like dead. So all you stalkers! Come ask me anything and I will try to be honest. But I seldom am.
Oh and Pretty Little Liars is pretty good. Hmm do I sound repetitive today? AND FINALLY VAMP DIARIES IS OUT! AWESOME MUCH!
I may seem like a fag watching all these shows but I assure you guys do watch these shit. If they tell you they don't, they are either LYING or are PUSSIES! HAHA right.
I hate to be alone. And soon I will be.
1 year+ more to go. 3 more months to pass.. |
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