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[Nov. 30th, 2009|06:28 pm] |
OFFICIALLY IT HAS ENDED! MY LIFE HAS ENDED! HAHAHA WHAT AM I TO DO NOW? I FEEL QUITE LOST.
Anyway, I was reading .... and I realized how childish I was in the past ( not saying I'm very mature now ), things I did ( especially things like buying two cakes since PEOPLE always harp on it ) , stuffs I said etc. As life progresses, you slowly grow up and realized how really small and insignificant you are to the world. Just like the famous GP saying: '' Nobody cares what you really think unless you are someone important.''I can't help but wonder what am I doing in this world? Doesn't everyone feel like this in some point of their lives?
OMG! AM I SUFFERING FROM A MID-LIFE CRISIS? BUT I'M ONLY 18!
But seriously. Now that my exams are over, I feel kinda lost. As I look towards the future, I see myself going to the army, then university ( praying my grades allow me ), then getting a job, then getting married and in the end die at some corner of the street from a heart attack at 99 years old. HOW BORING COULD LIFE GET? Its like playing SIMS 3 except going really slowly ( maybe it ain't so boring for Hui Yu la, seeing how kee siao she is playing with her William and Micheal and whoever and whatever and killing them off one by one -- in short playing God but that beside the point )
There has got to be more to life than meets the eye. Or maybe that is all to life. Goodness, I sound like someone who can't wait to die.
HAHA WHATEVER. THIS IS ALL PROBABLY CRAP ANYWAY.
Maybe to make life more interesting, I should impersonate a woman impersonating a man impersonating a woman. Complicated? HAHAHA I TOTALLY GET IT. Then we could all get horny in Paris right Pukins?
HAHA. Ramblings of a mad man.
Anyway. Since my exams are over. I'm going to start blogging again.
OH AND DID I TELL YOU GUYS? My social calender for this week is fully booked! I MEAN SERIOUSLY. ME! Social calender! FULLY BOOKED! STRANGE ISN'T IT? I mean hardly anyone wants to hang out with me so this is something new. IS FERRAN FINALLY BECOMING HIP AND IN?
MAJOR JOKE.
oh wait. I don't have plans for tomorrow. totally busted there.
Whatever. Shall go continue wrecking havoc on the Sims World. BYE! |
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[Nov. 21st, 2009|01:09 am] |
HMMM, should I post after my A's are officially over?
I'm just so excited. My life is finally coming to an end. |
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[Nov. 1st, 2009|08:36 pm] |
STRESS. FREAKING OUT. LESS THAN A WEEK.
The only thing I can say after not blogging for so long.
Can't wait for this to be all over. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2009|10:22 pm] |
I woke up this morning and I emoed. Like seriously. EMOED. Then I started writing this and went back to sleep after that. How weird can I get?
Title: You are the reason
You are the reason for my happiness.
Yet also the cause for my sadness.
You are the reason for my sweet dreams.
Yet also the cause of my nightmares.
You are the reason why I love.
Yet also the reason I cannot love.
You are the reason I laugh.
Yet also the cause for my tears.
You are the reason why I wish I had lived differently.
Yet also the reason why I wish I had not lived at all.
You are the reason I love you.
THE END.
Weird right? Waking up in the morning suddenly just to write this. Maybe I got possessed or something! OMG! |
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[Sep. 25th, 2009|03:36 pm] |
LONGEST time ever since I posted anything. Busy with revision, exams and what not.
But am I really? Seeing people getting better while I remain stuck at my position leaves me in self doubt. Can I really do it or am I just lying to myself?
I seriously hate the laziness in me. But who is to blame but myself? Who is to blame for the weak state of mind but myself?
The last major exam is a month away. Is it enough? Or will history repeat itself?
Annoyed with myself. I need to straighten out. I don't want to disappoint. I don't want to be left with no where to go.
I don't want to have regrets. |
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[Aug. 31st, 2009|10:05 am] |
$24 for a plate of chicken rice. LIKE SERIOUSLY. Okay. Granted the view was great and it was one-for-one so making it $12 but still!
No idea what I'm talking about? No, its not the Bishan Chicken Rice which I always bug the class to go eat with me. Its the Mandarin Hotel's Chatterbox. Apparently the best chicken rice in Singapore ( IT HAD BETTER BE. $24!!! ) Sometimes, I really wonder whether my parents are too rich but cannot be, I'm still poor!
But the view was WOW! 39 floors up! Its like the view from the flyer ( though I have never been on it but you get the picture )so I guess $20 for the view, $4 for the chicken rice thats why $24.
Okay fine. The chicken rice was good. Its like the chicken from bishan add the rice from yishun, sauce from novena and the garlic from soup kitchen. HAHA. Okay, what I mean is, its like all the good chicken rice stores in Singapore add together to produce one plate of chicken rice at $24.
Its amazing how one post can just be about chicken rice. Sounds like I'm writing review. HAHA.
I should just stop bothering everyone eh? |
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[Aug. 28th, 2009|11:57 pm] |
THE DANGERS OF NOT GOING OUT: 20 piece nuggets, a packet shaker fries, 3 pieces of chicken wings and a very comfortable couch.
Don't tell me I won't get fat.
TRW THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT. EXTEND LOAN OF JACKET TO ONE MORE WEEK! MUHAHAHAHAHA. |
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[Aug. 28th, 2009|04:04 pm] |
Loneliness
Hate, anger, frustration,
How does one survive?
Confusion, distraught, depression.
Why even be alive?
Screaming, running, sobbing,
Everyone is swarming.
Yelling, crying, dying.
Does someone really care?
I sit alone now, all by
Myself with no one else.
Except for my thoughts
Screaming within my head.
It hurts at the end,
As we all know, but
After that we don't
Know how to go.
Dante once said that sinners go
Where it is dark and dank,
And in the hot below,
Down where Hades rules.
But do we know
Where people go
After their loneliness
Has got to them.
I like this poem. To no one in particular. Though I edited some parts and took out some parts. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2009|07:03 pm] |
Its been so long since I posted. No. Actually it has only been 10 days.
Its been interesting. Last week I went to the library 5 TIMES! Like damn exciting.
And Kai Jia is so in love with me. But too bad. I'M NOT.
HEHEHE I found a really interesting picture.
And another interesting picture.
HAHAHA! I just had to. No wonder we love Japan.
Anyway. I think I'm really cursed to be single. EVEN IN MY DREAMS I GET REJECTED! LIKE WTF!
Val, this is all your fault. And stop harping on the 2 cakes.
rawr!
HAHAHA! But this doesn't look bad leh.
Oh well. WHATEVER. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2009|12:24 am] |
SIGH! IMF!
ITS MY FAULT! I just can't stop thinking about the race. Where is the reset button? |
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[Jul. 31st, 2009|11:55 pm] |
AHHH! MY HEAD HURTS!
ANYWAY. I was walking to school today and I started wondering why I seldom post about what is happening in my life nowadays ( yes, I do wonder about such bo liao stuff ). Then it occurred to me that there are two reasons.
1) MY LIFE IS UBER BORING! Who would one to read something like '' Okay. Today I went to school. First lesson was GP. Did essay. Second lesson was economics. Did market structure. Emily make joke. HAHA. Third lesson was maths. Break we went to library to study..etc'' LIKE OMG! SO INTERESTING LA. MAKES ME FEEL SUPER HIP AND IN SIOL! so yeah that is reason number 1.
2) EVEN IF ANYTHING INTERESTING HAPPENED. I shouldn't really say much so at least when I talk to people ( ESPECIALLY SOME PEOPLE ), they won't go like ' yeah you say already on your blog and on the way to Starbucks' ( I'm not randomly just using Starbucks as a place. HINT. ) So. If I don't post, I would have more 'ammo' to spread around! SMART RIGHT!
Oh yeah. And today was MEET THE PARENTS! MOST ANTICIPATED EVENT OF THE YEAR! SUPER HAPPENING! The show was damn nice, with so much emotion shown by both parties. BAH.
I'm tired. I want to watch Norlyn and Tee play soccer. I want to show off my EYE RISKY banner!
I noticed my English is deteriorating. But my spelling is still as bad. Thank God for SPELL CHECK!
ahhhh! Life is like that. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2009|11:22 pm] |
RESULTS. ARE. SERIOUSLY. AMAZING.
Makes me question whether I'm going to screw up my life.
I SHALL NOT BE PESSIMISTIC! ( steps back from the window ledge )
I shall put the mid-yrs behind me. Like Cherie said, whats done is done.
BUT STILL.
And it doesn't help that I'm so addicted...
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY...
Sigh. I wish I could just quit school and be a bum. A happybum ( like zy )
I WISH...I WISH....I HAD A GIRLFRIEND.
Bah. LIFE AT ITS FULLEST. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2009|08:38 pm] |
I feel stupid. Math results are screwed up. I think I should just go jump down the window.
JUST KIDDING.
But then again, maybe I should.
What am I doing? I just ate two cup noodles, 3 packets of macadamia nuts and a bar of chocolate. Am I going to get fat or what?
I'm a major procrastinator. I think I need to isolate myself so that I can start studying. Starting from now. Okay maybe tomorrow. Or next week.
Okay to lighten up the mood, I.....don't really have anything to lighten up the mood. HAHA!
Eh my life seems damn boring. Maybe one shot of vodka should do the trick. But what would happen to all the little green fairies flying around in my room?
Normal distribution LOVE IT. Poisson distribution LOVE IT. Binomial distribution LOVE IT. Pure math LOVE IT. I JUST LOVE MATH.
Now if I could just repeat this for maybe 10000000 times, it might actually be true.
WLY FTW!
Okay maybe I should stop here and just go and study.
Okay maybe after I'm finished with facebook. |
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[Jul. 7th, 2009|02:55 pm] |
This is gay.
BUT.
Today is Kim Bum's birthday.
Don't ask me how I know.
I didn't spent the whole of last night looking at Korean stuff.
No. I didn't.
And today Math. BAH.
Tomorrow is History, Yesterday is the present, Today is the future. And I am lame.
MATTHEW! MATTHEW, where are you? Come and teach them how to feed the chickens!
Matthew = MAJOR CUTENESS! |
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[Jul. 5th, 2009|08:10 pm] |
I think Rui Wei's birthday very happening.
ESPECIALLY in the taxi. HAHA. PAWAN AND VAL. JOKE.
And I still have exams on Tuesday and Wednesday. SPOILER.
I'm screwed for MYEs. |
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[Jun. 30th, 2009|11:52 pm] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY REI WEI ? RAY WEI? LAY WEI? LAY LAY? WEI WEI? REI REI? RUI WEI!
Don't GROW TOO OLD! |
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[Jun. 27th, 2009|12:18 pm] |
I'm suppose to be studying.....
BUT.
HEHEHE KEIRA IS SO CUTE. |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2009|10:43 pm] |
I'M BACK!
But I'm not going to update about Australia cause it will take super duper long!
And I don't have the flu. So sorry if you were hoping that I get it so that school hols will be extended. I'm too strong! But I did see a doctor in Aussie though. HAHAHA LONG STORY.
Aye, but I'm totally screwed for MYE. DIDN'T TOUCH MY NOTES AT ALL. Seriously.
And I want to go out! BUT BUT BUT. ARGH.
I miss MUCNCHY.
But. SIGH..
I'm fatter now. Which makes me piss. I'm going on a diet.
After I finish this chocolate bar. |
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|11:53 am] |
Okay. So I'm leaving. The world. For good. Never coming back.
NOT!
I'm just going Australia! To look at the pigs and hopefully find a cure to H1N1.
I'm almost packed. Ready to go.
But my heart wants to stay {because of you} (by Kelly Clarkson)
.....That was lame........
I'm going to pack the rest of my stuff. SO BYE.
And have fun without me..sobs.... |
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[May. 30th, 2009|12:26 pm] |
WHEE! I'm still high!( or at least I think I am )
Clubbing was fun! But, oh the pain of waking up today was...&*^*$%~
Steamboat at SEE SEE's house was seriously..hahahaha. Hilarious.
I know I haven't been posting for like what? 2 weeks? So here I am, sober and suffering from stomach cramps, posting just to please my eager fans who want to hear about totally mundane life. Of school, and..............er.....school?
Seriously. I have nothing else to say.
OH WAIT! I'M GOING AUSTRALIA! IN LIKE! 5 DAYS!
But the amount of books I'm bringing, seems as if I'm going to their school to study.
But look on the bright side, if the weather is good, SKIING!!!!!!!\
Seriously... NOTHING TO POST!
okay.
What about a picture?
You know what? I CAN'T FIND A PICTURE!! How loser can I be?
Argh. Praying that I will not screw up at bball later. |
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